Butthole Surfers – Sweat Loaf

Daddy?

Yes, son.

What does regret mean?

Well son, the funny thing about regret is that it's better to regret
something you have done than to regret something that you haven't done

And by the way, If you see your mom this weekend, will you be sure and
tell her...SATAN SATAN SATAN!!!!

Unfortunately this mindset has destroyed our planet.

It's far more responsible and less damaging to regret something you haven't done.

Usually when people regret not doing something it's because they regret missing out on an experience or personal gains. Usually when people regret something they've done, it's because it was disastrous and the experience was not worth the cost to themselves and others.

When I was about 13ish living in NJ, my friend and I decided to head down to the railroad near the Delaware river.

To get there we decided to go down the steel steps that ran down the hillside in our town. There are two flat platforms along the way and when we reached the first one we spotted a boy who, we knew from the area, coming up the steps in our direction.

His name was Ken. Ken had a mental disability but he was harmless. A friendly and defenseless kid that was about the same age as us and about a head taller. As he was coming up the steps I wondered what he would do if I punched him in the gut. A total sucker punch that he wouldn't see coming.

I knew he wouldn't retaliate so I decided I would do it.

As he got within range, without warning, I punched him right in the gut hard.

How he reacted and the painful look on his face instantly brought regret that, to this day, I still live with. Many years later I made an effort to find Ken and tell him how sorry I was for my violent, unprovoked actions that day. How much of an asshole I was and hope he might forgive me. I found out he had died just a couple of years back.

I think about how that punch may have changed him forever. How it may have destroyed his trust in people and planted a fear within him that I was responsible for.

Sometime later, when I was alone, I cried that day with that vision I saw on his face and I can still see it now and feel it in my gut as I write this.

That day had changed my life forever at his expense.

Case and point.

I think the point was that I learned something about myself that I will never forget and has made me more compassionate towards others. I not only hurt Ken but also myself. I started out wondering what Ken would do. I never thought about what I was going to do afterwards. I think that was a good thing and I owe it to Ken.

the full set is impressive...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1wkqZIJOAQ&feature=emb_logo

Orbital did it better

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFjKPLc5qD0

The most priceless part of clicking that link was after the video, when YouTube's all-knowing algorithm decided to show me a "Donate Now" advertisement for Trump/Pence 2020.