The Loss of Thought, and Dr. Carl Sagan's Writings on Marijuana

I was smoking a joint, thinking, as is the routine - has been for four or five years now - and realised that there have been so many moments of joyous revelation in the thoughts I've experienced over time that always just popped up out of nowhere. Or at least as it seemed, in my spacy mind; me the boy with his head in the clouds. And just as they struck me, they bounced right back into that dark nothingness of forgotten wisdom.. perhaps to be remembered again, another night, but mostly just gone, forever. Dust in the wind, as they say (pardon the cliche!) With that thought in mind, the thought of thoughts forgotten! - I decided I would begin to write down the things that I think, the things that occur so fleeting they are oft forgot, but seemed so true and powerful as they occured.

On the topic of being stoned, in general, I've reached some conclusions. I have over time become to think of it as a scale. Sobriety is the middle point, being high is a level above, and the burn out after being high is below sobriety. To get higher than sobriety, you must fall below it when you come back down. It is a repugnant state, to be burnt out. I could go into depth about the languid horror of it all, but I'd much rather not. I wonder though, how arguable my little scale is, if perhaps you were looking at it scientifically. Would most agree that through getting high, by means of marijuana, you are elevated to a state of somewhat higher consciousness - more "in tune" as they say? My position is yes, most certainly. Speaking from my own experience, and as is noted in the above paragraph - mostly all my moments of seriously intelligent, truthful insight came from and was created by being in that state. The honourable, late, Dr. Call Sagan seems to validate this assertion in his writings on his own experiences with marijuana:

I do not consider myself a religious person in the usual sense, but there is a religious aspect to some highs. The heightened sensitivity in all areas gives me a feeling of communion with my surroundings, both animate and inanimate. Sometimes a kind of existential perception of the absurd comes over me and I see with awful certainty the hypocrisies and posturing of myself and my fellow men. And at other times, there is a different sense of the absurd, a playful and whimsical awareness. Both of these senses of the absurd can be communicated, and some of the most rewarding highs I've had have been in sharing talk and perceptions and humor. Cannabis brings us an awareness that we spend a lifetime being trained to overlook and forget and put out of our minds. A sense of what the world is really like can be maddening; cannabis has brought me some feelings for what it is like to be crazy, and how we use that word 'crazy' to avoid thinking about things that are too painful for us. In the Soviet Union political dissidents are routinely placed in insane asylums. The same kind of thing, a little more subtle perhaps, occurs here: 'did you hear what Lenny Bruce said yesterday? He must be crazy.' When high on cannabis I discovered that there's somebody inside in those people we call mad.

There is a myth about such highs: the user has an illusion of great insight, but it does not survive scrutiny in the morning. I am convinced that this is an error, and that the devastating insights achieved when high are real insights; the main problem is putting these insights in a form acceptable to the quite different self that we are when we're down the next day. Some of the hardest work I've ever done has been to put such insights down on tape or in writing. The problem is that ten even more interesting ideas or images have to be lost in the effort of recording one. It is easy to understand why someone might think it's a waste of effort going to all that trouble to set the thought down, a kind of intrusion of the Protestant Ethic. But since I live almost all my life down I've made the effort - successfully, I think. Incidentally, I find that reasonably good insights can be remembered the next day, but only if some effort has been made to set them down another way. If I write the insight down or tell it to someone, then I can remember it with no assistance the following morning; but if I merely say to myself that I must make an effort to remember, I never do.

I find that most of the insights I achieve when high are into social issues, an area of creative scholarship very different from the one I am generally known for. I can remember one occasion, taking a shower with my wife while high, in which I had an idea on the origins and invalidities of racism in terms of gaussian distribution curves. It was a point obvious in a way, but rarely talked about. I drew the curves in soap on the shower wall, and went to write the idea down. One idea led to another, and at the end of about an hour of extremely hard work I found I had written eleven short essays on a wide range of social, political, philosophical, and human biological topics. Because of problems of space, I can't go into the details of these essays, but from all external signs, such as public reactions and expert commentary, they seem to contain valid insights. I have used them in university commencement addresses, public lectures, and in my books.

 

If you've never read his writings on marijuana and his experiences with it, it's a definite must-read. 

http://www.marijuana-uses.com/essays/002.html

 

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