So yeah, im a half in, half out of the closet trans person living a genderfluid reality. Complicated existence, and unlesz you're in the demographic or a serious ally, you just don't understand what it's like. This isn't a new revelation, I have known this about myself as long as i have had self awareness.

I grew up during the Reagan era, so no one gave a shit that I thought I was a girl.

Literally just shit on and reshaped and fear thunderstruck, raped, molested as a form of homosexual comversion -- you got this shit?

I just didn't understand what people meant when they were trying to explain the differencez between male and female because i was CERTAIN i was a girl when I was 3 years old. And yes i have those memories. In fact, the age of 4 through 7 are the most vivid and awful memories of my reality an you may stare theough me and rwfuse to understand if you want, but like the song says "We exist." (By Arcade Fire; Cool song even if the musician isnt trans.)

Anyway. We are just shit on. I'm used to it. A friend of mine used to call me a white nigger and honestly, as racial insensitive as that is (a black guy telling me this) that is the feeling. Police brutality and all. Whatever. You dont want to understand so just dont bother. I got sick to death of explaining this so long ago it doent matter to me. How fu king sad is that? How fu ling sad is my goddamn perspective? How can I even be happy in this world? Its shit.

Logic: If you are so afraid we are a bunch of rapists, what about gay people who aren't transgender -- where do they take a pee where people won't fear them molesting people of the same sex? I mean, is there going to be a "Gays Only" and "Transgender Only" bathroom?? It doesn't make sense even if you fear us.

And in my humble and humiliated existence, gay people have wanted nothing to do with me and have even tried to convert and change my opinions of myself. Even in the middle of FUCKING LA PRIDE. Assholez like that CUNT Milo. He can go DIE.

It doesn't make sense. Have you ever peed in a Men's Restroom with a dress on? Totally awkward.

I know I'm using colloquialisms and non-PC language, but I'm just really depressed about this -- as if I wasn't already depressed about everything all the time lol

Republicans. Fuck you. I have no other means of relating my disappointment in the entirity of all reality -- the very fabric of this universe is hate.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Two-Spirit#

OUR HISTORY WAS ERASED. WE ARE NOT NEW TO THIS WORLD.

I know two spirit is not precisely transgender, but there were definitely cultures in the past that accepted our queerness.

But fucking dumbass, so-callex "traditional" European culture denies us.

More history lessons, dearies:

Hijra of South Asia

"In Pakistan, India and Bangladesh, the hijras are officially recognized as third gender by the government, being neither completely male nor female. "

Fuck you America. Land of what? LAND OF WHAT.

Excuse my bad Attitude, but I am pissed. Not depressed -- YOUR ANGER IS A GIFT.

Irish, German, Cherokee, Welsh, Scottish, Dutch with a Vietnamese wife -- what the fuck does tradition even mean to me?!?!?!?! IT MEANS NOTHING. You started this, you fucks. All throughout history!!! Your culture is FALSE and FAKE.

Wow. You know what, I sometimes write really long posts on the internets but I rarely hit enter. Because it's mostly really difficult to explain some things in writing to one's satisfaction. So while I still don't understand the whole transgender thing, I do acknowledge it really must be difficult to take a pee in a Men's Restroom with a dress on.

I, for one, think that all public bathrooms should be unisex - get rid of all the urinals and add more stalls (some places call them cubicles).
Does anyone actually have a urinal in their home?

http://time.com/4337761/history-sex-segregated-bathrooms/