Her blog continues here.

Death does not affect me as strongly as it does most people. I feel it's one of the most important parts of life. That doesn't mean I'm not sad when someone dies; that I don't miss them; but I am not obsessed with prolonging life the way most people are. I'm not a very charitable person. I have mixed feelings about a lot of causes that seek to cure terminal diseases.

I still admire Eva. She inspired thousands. I don't hesitate to say, were I in her position, I'd curl up and wait for death. I'm not proud of that, but there are few people who can use the end of their own lives to improve a world they won't even get to enjoy. The vast majority of us just don't have the fortitude.

@westy, you "moronic fool", Eva's story is not notable because she was a young woman who died; It's notable for how she used her time.

>> ^zor:
Let me guess...this is a product of Japan, right?


Good guess, but nope - Australia.

It's done by Paul Robertson

More of his work:

Kings of Power 4 Billion %
Pirate Baby's Cabana Battle Street Fight

1. I had an ex-boyfriend violently try to kill himself in front of me. It fucked me up and I dropped out of life for about four years. All my friends gave up on trying to get me out of my shell. As of right now, I have no physical friends aside from my family. I beat myself up about shutting everyone out so completely.

2. I also have an ex-boyfriend who is on death row and he's been there for 8 years. He killed some police officers and when they were fleeing, my friend Allen was gunned down.

3. I had a boyfriend who drowned in a lake. I don't like to call him an ex because we never broke up. He died. It's been almost ten years and I still go to his old LiveJournal and read all the entries and cry.

4. I had a terrifying experience in New Orleans when I was 16. It never showed itself to me, but made awful tapping noises all over my hotel room. Whenever I tried to wake up my parents, it would stop. I was so very very scared.. Even typing this now, I have to repress the urge to cry and turn on all my lights. I'm sweating. When I went to sleep that night, I curled against the headboard, with my back out towards the room. I woke up in the morning and took a hot shower and when I turned around, the hot water stung on my back. I looked at my back in the mirror and there were three long scratches spanning diagonally from the tops of my shoulders to my waist. Even though they had obviously bled and scabbed, there was no blood on my shirt or on the bra I had been wearing. That experience really fucked up my religious beliefs. I like to say that I'm a complete atheist, but whenever I say that, I think back to that night and I'm afraid of what an afterlife is and who or what exists in it.

5. I'm leaking breast milk all over my legs right now, but I'm ignoring the mess.

6. Mensa tried to recruit me as a little girl and it freaked me out. They sent so many letters and called to speak to me all the time. They tried to talk to me at school but I was convinced they were some kind of cult. Plus, they wanted me to spend my summer taking classes and doing homework. Crazy fuckers.

7. I had some rare kind of nerve cancer as a teenager and they cut the tumor from my chin when I was 16. The tumor and the consequent surgery left the lower part of my face numb and my lower lip a bit unresponsive. I drool on myself sometimes and when it's pointed out, I vehemently tell them I had cancer. It makes me laugh at how they scramble to apologize.

8. I used to be really into music and I've played with several bands, ranging from rock to jazz to blues to just jamming. I was really into it and I loved performing at dives and all the free beer. No one cards you when you're the band. But after my ex tried to kill himself, I fell out of that world, too. I regret that more than anything. I love music.. Now I just play for me and somehow it's not the same.

9. I play piano, clarinet, alto and soprano recorders[Hey, those are real instruments, too!], cello, violin, guitar, bass, any stringed instrument really, drum kit, hand drums, etc etc. I haven't really found an instrument I couldn't play. I like to sing a lot. My baby loves it when I sing. That pleases me greatly!! He's my number on fan.

10. I was expelled the last semester of my senior year from high school for doodling in my notebook a stick figure with a crude gun pointed at its head. It was accompanied by the sentence "I hate chemistry." The teacher walked by and saw it, seized it and dragged me to the principal. I was arrested for threatening students with a handgun. [My drawing wasn't specific, I mean, it could have been a sawed-off shotgun?? It was more of a sideways L..] I got 9 months of probation and had to get my diploma by correspondence. It was hilarious and fucked up all at the same time.

11. I had a neighbor freak out on cocaine and whatever else that guy was on. He came over and kept my roommates and I hostage and screamed at us about "sounding out" at night. He also put my roommate's Diamonda Galas CD on and played it full volume. That's what got the police there. Thank God for Diamonda's screeching voice or my other neighbor's wouldn't have called the cops. He also tried to strangle our cat. When the police finally busted down the back door, he was screaming about how he would kill us all. The cops took him to the ground and he told them he was the mayor and they would be fired. Heh.

12. I've been the victim of rape many times. I wonder sometimes if I have an aura that tells people it's ok to hurt me like that..

13. When my baby cried for almost 7 hours straight, I honestly contemplated smothering him. I feel evil because of that.

14. I had a college reading level by fourth grade and teachers would get upset that I wanted to read during recess. I read the same books as my mother and father and of course, some had "questionable" content. Whenever they confiscated one of my books, my dad would get royally pissed and scream at them over the phone. I still love to read. I read compulsively. I read all the labels of everything I buy just because. When I take a shit, if there's nothing to read, I read the back of the shampoo or whatever is close by. To my utter shame, I have read harlequin romance novels. I'll read anything within arms reach, even if it's utter shite. I really love a good book, though. Don't get me wrong!

15. I won a national short story contest for children when I was 12. The story was about a demon who disemboweled hapless victims during one cold winter night. I only really remember one part where the entrails steamed in the snow. What the fuck was wrong with those judges??

16. I talk way, way too much.

17. I have CPS involved in my life because I tested positive in my urine for marijuana when I went to the hospital to deliver my son. I hadn't smoked pot in almost six months. The CPS people call me a liar, but I'm not fucking lying. I read that pot can sometimes be detected up to 90 days after, but it had been twice that. Now I have to go to counseling twice a week for 6 months and they randomly drop by and drug test. They assess my whole house each time and write it up when I don't do the goddamn dishes. I hate CPS. Where were they when I was being abused as a child? Why didn't they care about rape and physical abuse? They ignored me when I begged for help..

18. I'm often way too candid.

19. I hold a grudge like a mother fucker. I try very very hard not to hate certain people. But I often fail.

20. I really love VideoSift. I used to be really into IRC. I have a long history of communicating and making friends over the internet. But the Sift is my favorite. I stopped for a long time and it was really hard not to come here and browse. I would find myself absent-mindedly typing the url. Oi.

21. I'm really into Facebook. It's the only way I talk to my estranged family and friends.

22. I love music, if you can't tell by the stuff I sift. Any and all types of music, except for bad music. Har har. Farhad's queue is one of my favorite places to peruse.

23. When I bare my soul to people, it never ever turns out right.

24. I tend to over-punctuate!!@!!!@1!!11!1!@!111one

25. I love to smile and be cheerful. I find humor in even the most dire of tragedies and I often get flack from that. People don't understand it, I guess.

This video was posted to this LJ community (post long since lost) and the rest was magician history.

The lamp is king.
the lamp has always been.
"Be well, my children"

http://stereotypist.livejournal.com/95987.html#cutid1

speaking of stories that will really fuck you up

I have an account on LiveJournal, and when someone makes a great comment, for a split second I actually try to upvote it.

This is based on a real Chick Tract Comic:

From wiki:
"Lisa,[91] a Chick tract no longer on the Chick Publication website, features Henry, an unemployed father who, after renting video pornography, sexually abuses his daughter. After she is diagnosed with herpes, the doctor scolds and subsequently saves Henry, who goes home to share the Good News with his wife and daughter.[92]"

You can view a scan of the "Lisa" Chick Tract here: http://community.livejournal.com/scans_daily/5556735.html

The times have changed, this video has been sifted!
previous attempt:
http://www.videosift.com/video/Architecture-in-Helsinki-Do-The-Whirlwind-byP-Robertson

Pixelart video by Paul Robertson
http://probertson.livejournal.com

AIH: http://architectureinhelsinki.com/

Lyrics "Do The Whirlwind":

She said you'd given up,
Your folks told me you should be left alone,
On a mountain top knocking the aeroplanes down with stones.
Do the whirlwind and carry the hope that stings all night long,
Don't abandon him 'cause he quivers when he hears your song,

Believe me, it's safe to see.
At least be confused about right and wrong,
Plan to settle down,
Over the moon under the sun.
Do the whirlwind and shotgun the seat that beats that beats
Hanging on to the one you love
To keep keepin', sleepin', dreamin' on.

Folks given up under the quivers and lines,
You do the whirlwind,
Don't abandon,
Get a handle of yourself, son.

this is so cool, was going to repost, but since its here, dunno how to get it back up, the guy has a livejournal with cool stuff on it too http://probertson.livejournal.com/ , wish my drawing & animation was at his level

McCain Palin 08!

Who you tryin' to get crazy with ese? Donchu know that I'm loco?


Another good one from a friend.... http://pics.livejournal.com/mark_monroe/pic/0000gsas/

Hey you guys should come down to Fiddlehead Joe's for a bite and some beers. Lemme cook you up something.

That is, unless you're talking between August 18th until September 5, because fullerene dream and I are going to be off getting married.

If it is after that then hells yeah! Last time I had friends visit, chef let me do up a very ambitious 7 course meal for them for $35 a head, but I'd be happy to scale that way back if you guys want just a few tasters or whatever. I mean, we do serve burgers and stuff too.

It'd be awesome to meet some of y'all.

Likelihood of me leaving any traces with TOR and Firefox? about -15%.

To be truthful I am completely against any thing that can be used to infringe upon the 4th amendment. IE Patriot Act, and Google History, as well as any thing that has the ability that was created on accident.

PS: I encrypt my emails... and no you don't have the right to my pass phrases.

Likelihood of you being FEMALE is 49%
Likelihood of you being MALE is 51%


Site Male-Female Ratio
livejournal.com
0.68
deviantart.com
1.02
allakhazam.com
1.5

ah.. the intrigue. This is my wife's computer...lol

>> ^MINK:
Likelihood of you posting your browsing history on the internet or leaving it in the cache when you quit firefox is 0%.

raptor eaten babies,

[ NSFW explanation, it's a comic: http://community.livejournal.com/randompictures/4104374.html#cutid1 ]