Another example of how Big Business is helping to make your decisions for you while it lies through it's teeth...

so, i have 4 jobs and 2 kids and grad school. i have been a recreational smoker for years, just smoking maybe once every few months when i had a babysitter and was hanging out with my friends... but now i use it to treat the stress and anxiety that goes along with trying to do 9 things at once all the fucking time. i was a huge ball of irritable stress, a few weeks ago when i was getting pissed because my curtains weren't laying right and i couldn't stop my brain from running through the list of things i had to do all night, i decided it was time to do something about all this stress. i now smoke pot daily, taking a few hits off a joint i keep hidden in my car in between clients. at 29 i know how to regulate myself, i know how many hits i need to take to just calm down and get focused vs. how many hits i have to take to get stoned. i never get stoned, i just chill the fuck out and am able to focus. i'm not lazy, my kids are not in danger, my work is not impaired, my clients dont even know i just smoked a joint when i show up.

the alternative was going to do the doctor and getting prescription anxiety medication. which i'm waaay more likely to abuse and either has horrible side effects or leaves me impaired for most of the day. and costs me a ton of money, as i'm uninsured.

i don't think the continued prohibition of pot has its roots in racism anymore as much as it is about maintaining profits for the pharmaceutical industry. i suspect amex is in bed with some pharmaceutical giants somehow, im not going to do the research to prove it, because i have to go to work now, but i'm going to speculate thats whats up.

also, the people who live on my couch right now have started a guerilla grow movement around my small, right wing, texas town. and i for one, think its wonderful.