So yeah, im a half in, half out of the closet trans person living a genderfluid reality. Complicated existence, and unlesz you're in the demographic or a serious ally, you just don't understand what it's like. This isn't a new revelation, I have known this about myself as long as i have had self awareness.

I grew up during the Reagan era, so no one gave a shit that I thought I was a girl.

Literally just shit on and reshaped and fear thunderstruck, raped, molested as a form of homosexual comversion -- you got this shit?

I just didn't understand what people meant when they were trying to explain the differencez between male and female because i was CERTAIN i was a girl when I was 3 years old. And yes i have those memories. In fact, the age of 4 through 7 are the most vivid and awful memories of my reality an you may stare theough me and rwfuse to understand if you want, but like the song says "We exist." (By Arcade Fire; Cool song even if the musician isnt trans.)

Anyway. We are just shit on. I'm used to it. A friend of mine used to call me a white nigger and honestly, as racial insensitive as that is (a black guy telling me this) that is the feeling. Police brutality and all. Whatever. You dont want to understand so just dont bother. I got sick to death of explaining this so long ago it doent matter to me. How fu king sad is that? How fu ling sad is my goddamn perspective? How can I even be happy in this world? Its shit.

Logic: If you are so afraid we are a bunch of rapists, what about gay people who aren't transgender -- where do they take a pee where people won't fear them molesting people of the same sex? I mean, is there going to be a "Gays Only" and "Transgender Only" bathroom?? It doesn't make sense even if you fear us.

And in my humble and humiliated existence, gay people have wanted nothing to do with me and have even tried to convert and change my opinions of myself. Even in the middle of FUCKING LA PRIDE. Assholez like that CUNT Milo. He can go DIE.

It doesn't make sense. Have you ever peed in a Men's Restroom with a dress on? Totally awkward.

I know I'm using colloquialisms and non-PC language, but I'm just really depressed about this -- as if I wasn't already depressed about everything all the time lol

Republicans. Fuck you. I have no other means of relating my disappointment in the entirity of all reality -- the very fabric of this universe is hate.

Friends and I got really high and watched this film muted, with the Arcade Fire's "Suburbs" album playing. It was a very remarkable evening.

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Why thank you again, rainbow nun!
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Why thank you again, rainbow nun!
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you are welcome meatbag. it is a beautiful cover.
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Thank you!
In reply to this comment by lurgee:
*quality

Thank you!
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*quality

Wanted to submit this *quality cover, but since it's already here, I posted this instead: http://videosift.com/video/Maxence-Cryin-No-Cars-Go-Piano-Cover-of-The-Arcade-Fire

Nice remix of Arcade Fire.

arcade fire is soooo *quality

>> ^clockworks321:

I LOVE Régine, her songs are always the best.

Same

*books

I really love Peter Gabriel's cover of my body is a cage by the Arcade Fire in this.

This video has been declared a duplicate by the original submitter; transferring votes to the original video and killing this dupe - dupeof declared by vaporlock.

*dupeof=http://videosift.com/video/Arcade-Fire-The-Suburbs-dir-Spike-Jonze

http://videosift.com/video/Arcade-Fire-The-Suburbs-dir-Spike-Jonze

I'd upvote solely for the Arcade Fire cover, but the show has been on such an idiotic downhill streak this season, my overall disappointment still can't be helped. "Cannonball!"? "Party harder!"? House connecting with a bunch of college kids all of a sudden is retarded.